19.3.15

I am an introvert.

A search on the dictionary gave me this:
introvert
a person concerned primarily with inner thoughts and feelings rather than with the physical or social environment.
I actually feel pretty happy to know that in recent years, people have been talking about how being an introvert isn't a negative thing - such as, introverts just enjoy some lone time by ourselves just like how extroverts enjoy socializing with friends. It's not entirely like an anti-social or a shy behaviour.

I identify myself as an introvert at a young age - but being an introvert isn't something to be proud of back then. I had even once doubted that maybe I wasn't actually an introvert - because at times I don't feel "extremely shy" but I even enjoyed performing or speaking in public at some point. But I am still an introvert. Being introverted is not about being unable to deliver or express something in front of people. (Side note: I am still a shy person regardless.)

I am an introvert - whether at times I may or may not look like one. Introverts do enjoy talking and mingling with people - just not all the time. There's another thing that I would like to mention which is regarding personal space. I suppose this is not an introvert-only thing, but I just wanted to highlight that introverts probably treasure personal space a bit more than extroverts. Some extrovert friends would tell me they'd feel bored and lonely when there's no one in the house, so they would ask their friends to hang out with them. But I suppose this is different for the introverts. I'd be more than happy to enjoy this expanded solitude and doesn't have to share the space with anyone else. Of course, I would still enjoy a good small company of my closest friends and family - but that doesn't mean that I don't need my personal space, it's just that I don't need that wide a distance of my personal space compared to strangers or acquaintances.

I am writing this because it's been a while since I actually ponder on what kind of person I am. Being an introvert is not something new to me, but yet it is so important for me to remind myself that the things I do and the things I felt are not something out of character (read: gone crazy). This is one of the ways to tell that I am thinking and trying to organize my thoughts.