最美麗的情人節夜晚… 是一杯熱奶茶，和一個最棒的伴侶；
讓人可以安心舒服地述說着每一天的大小事、
七情上面舞動拳頭地談著讓人氣憤不平的事、
快樂單純地談着關於夢想和未來的事；
還有那種在其他人面前都可以隱藏得很好的悲傷和低落
來到親愛的你面前，什麼假面都融化無跡
對你，心就是可以如此地坦蕩赤裸
TT___TT
然後
擦乾滿臉的淚之後
一切又變得很美好很幸福了。 :)
Showing posts with label 自白书 | confession. Show all posts
Showing posts with label 自白书 | confession. Show all posts
15.2.12
27.7.11
欲言又止
写过了很多篇draft,但还是没有publish出来。
我还是觉得应该对自己说过的话负责任。
发表过的文章，不能够随便再拿下来，不然部落格就没有了可信度。
在面子书发表过的言论，我也没有删除，毕竟只是想对自己的言行负责；这是我做人的原则之一。
所谓一言既出驷马难追，用嘴巴说的话像泼出去的水一样，没有办法收回的。
虽然现在数码科技允许我们undo及delete, 并不代表我们就可以随便对自己的言行undo和delete。
这样跟杀了人再毁灭证据有什么不一样？！（笑）
我就是这样偏执，懂我的朋友们大概都懂我对这一方面到底是有多么地坚守不移的。
巨蟹座的原则，大概只有巨蟹座的人才懂，可能还有那些固执的星座才懂（笑）。
巨蟹座有时候真的很令人讨厌，我自己也受不了自己。
所以其实呵，我是非常不认同那些喜欢发表煽动性的言论的朋友！发表了之后，发现有太多攻击性质的回复时，就不了了之地把自己和别人的回复言论一并删除了。这不是不负责任叫什么？！（激动）
就好像你不能够发脾气然后随便上街骂人家是猪头饼，然后恢复理智了就随便讲一声soli就拍拍屁股走人的啊。
虽然文字上的impact看来没有言语上的那样大，可是影响力和杀伤力是一定有的，不是说undo和delete了就可以一并把那些杀伤力undo或delete掉的。
可是又能怎么办，世界又不是绕着我而转动的。
所以很多时候，我...欲post又止了。（笑）
有一个朋友让我很敬佩的，他老是给朋友们“欺负”，有时候感觉上不是恶意地欺负或中伤他啦，可是每次不管他在不在场，朋友们就是喜欢把他当笑柄，然而他也不会反驳或抗议什么的，就还是很乐意地娱乐大家，好像也不介意别人把他当笑话。有一次我看不过眼，就私底下问他说怎么每次被人笑话都没有抗议或为自己辩护呢？他的回答很简短，也让我印象深刻，他只是笑笑地说，“因为我不想说一些我以后可能会后悔的话啊。”
这又让我想起以前学姐莹运在生活营里说过的话，那时因为玩团康游戏，然后输了都会有惩罚的，我知道惩罚的方式还真的是很尴尬难堪的，当然旁人看在眼里是很好笑的啦，可是她完成了惩罚之后，还不介意跟大家一起笑着说了一句“能够娱乐大家是我的荣幸！”
啊，太高境界了～我得多多学习才行！然后很巧的是，以上两位朋友……都是巨蟹座的哟！我只是希望自己不会变得太令人讨厌的巨蟹座啦。（笑）
我还是觉得应该对自己说过的话负责任。
发表过的文章，不能够随便再拿下来，不然部落格就没有了可信度。
在面子书发表过的言论，我也没有删除，毕竟只是想对自己的言行负责；这是我做人的原则之一。
所谓一言既出驷马难追，用嘴巴说的话像泼出去的水一样，没有办法收回的。
虽然现在数码科技允许我们undo及delete, 并不代表我们就可以随便对自己的言行undo和delete。
这样跟杀了人再毁灭证据有什么不一样？！（笑）
我就是这样偏执，懂我的朋友们大概都懂我对这一方面到底是有多么地坚守不移的。
巨蟹座的原则，大概只有巨蟹座的人才懂，可能还有那些固执的星座才懂（笑）。
巨蟹座有时候真的很令人讨厌，我自己也受不了自己。
所以其实呵，我是非常不认同那些喜欢发表煽动性的言论的朋友！发表了之后，发现有太多攻击性质的回复时，就不了了之地把自己和别人的回复言论一并删除了。这不是不负责任叫什么？！（激动）
就好像你不能够发脾气然后随便上街骂人家是猪头饼，然后恢复理智了就随便讲一声soli就拍拍屁股走人的啊。
虽然文字上的impact看来没有言语上的那样大，可是影响力和杀伤力是一定有的，不是说undo和delete了就可以一并把那些杀伤力undo或delete掉的。
可是又能怎么办，世界又不是绕着我而转动的。
所以很多时候，我...欲post又止了。（笑）
有一个朋友让我很敬佩的，他老是给朋友们“欺负”，有时候感觉上不是恶意地欺负或中伤他啦，可是每次不管他在不在场，朋友们就是喜欢把他当笑柄，然而他也不会反驳或抗议什么的，就还是很乐意地娱乐大家，好像也不介意别人把他当笑话。有一次我看不过眼，就私底下问他说怎么每次被人笑话都没有抗议或为自己辩护呢？他的回答很简短，也让我印象深刻，他只是笑笑地说，“因为我不想说一些我以后可能会后悔的话啊。”
这又让我想起以前学姐莹运在生活营里说过的话，那时因为玩团康游戏，然后输了都会有惩罚的，我知道惩罚的方式还真的是很尴尬难堪的，当然旁人看在眼里是很好笑的啦，可是她完成了惩罚之后，还不介意跟大家一起笑着说了一句“能够娱乐大家是我的荣幸！”
啊，太高境界了～我得多多学习才行！然后很巧的是，以上两位朋友……都是巨蟹座的哟！我只是希望自己不会变得太令人讨厌的巨蟹座啦。（笑）
14.4.11
Problems
I have a confession to make, it's probably very common, but I still have to confess. I have problems concentrating on one thing at a time, and it's getting serious.
Anyway this is just a post for me to once again acknowledge and admit my own weakness and problem, I didn't mention this problem to people much, except a close friend.
I think it started about 4 years ago, when I start to notice that I find it hard to concentrate under all those stress with various activities. But the symptoms are getting worse. Even if I plug off my internet cable, and doing nothing else but one work, my mind gets carried away with something else. I couldn't even sit still sometimes.
I believe I don't have ADHD, since it's biological and I had never shown any similar symptoms during my childhood. I've found advices and suggestions to overcome this concentration problem. Just to mention a few, which probably sounds general, such as setting goals, time management, shaping some good habits and routines. There are some which sounds really useful to me, like getting rid of clutter at the workplace, including keeping the brain clutter-free. Besides the outer distractions, I had experienced my brain being extremely distracted, like in one moment, the brain is telling me dozens of different things, emotions, problems, weather, myths, past memories, future possibilities... etc. Sometimes they become rather overwhelming when I'm not controlling those thoughts. Another advice from psychologists will also be exercise. Exercise get rid of the extra energy in individuals who had ADHD, and it balances the brain chemicals. I used to keep a weekly jogging routine in certain months, and I had not been experiencing severe concentration problems. When I slack off and skipped exercises, before I realized it, I'm drowned in my own unstable emotions and it includes inability to focus on one thing for a long time.
The most frustrating thing about this concentration problem is, when you know how far your abilities can go and the result doesn't reflect your own ability at all.
I got over with my mild depression, and I want to learn to concentrate for important and long tasks. I'll make an effort to be like myself and become a better individual. May God strengthen me and guide me through difficult situations.
Anyway this is just a post for me to once again acknowledge and admit my own weakness and problem, I didn't mention this problem to people much, except a close friend.
I think it started about 4 years ago, when I start to notice that I find it hard to concentrate under all those stress with various activities. But the symptoms are getting worse. Even if I plug off my internet cable, and doing nothing else but one work, my mind gets carried away with something else. I couldn't even sit still sometimes.
I believe I don't have ADHD, since it's biological and I had never shown any similar symptoms during my childhood. I've found advices and suggestions to overcome this concentration problem. Just to mention a few, which probably sounds general, such as setting goals, time management, shaping some good habits and routines. There are some which sounds really useful to me, like getting rid of clutter at the workplace, including keeping the brain clutter-free. Besides the outer distractions, I had experienced my brain being extremely distracted, like in one moment, the brain is telling me dozens of different things, emotions, problems, weather, myths, past memories, future possibilities... etc. Sometimes they become rather overwhelming when I'm not controlling those thoughts. Another advice from psychologists will also be exercise. Exercise get rid of the extra energy in individuals who had ADHD, and it balances the brain chemicals. I used to keep a weekly jogging routine in certain months, and I had not been experiencing severe concentration problems. When I slack off and skipped exercises, before I realized it, I'm drowned in my own unstable emotions and it includes inability to focus on one thing for a long time.
The most frustrating thing about this concentration problem is, when you know how far your abilities can go and the result doesn't reflect your own ability at all.
I got over with my mild depression, and I want to learn to concentrate for important and long tasks. I'll make an effort to be like myself and become a better individual. May God strengthen me and guide me through difficult situations.
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