我们的世界很奇妙，创造世界的神很完美。
有白天、有黑夜；
有欢喜、有悲伤。
有生、有死。
我们笑着迎接新的生命，哭着送走逝去的生命。
在欢笑声中被接到这世上，在悲泣中离开。
孩子学着成为大人；大人想着成为孩子。
我们越长大，越需要被提醒连孩子们都会的事。
孩子们却一直被教导着如何成为懂事成熟的孩子。
未知的事，大人害怕；
失败的事，大人恐惧。
未知的事，孩子探索；
失败的事，孩子根本不懂什么叫失败。
我的赤子之心，不会远去。
那些很单纯没有一点杂念的信念。
Childlike faith.
世间万物都是一个圆
有始
有终。
26.4.11
14.4.11
Problems
I have a confession to make, it's probably very common, but I still have to confess. I have problems concentrating on one thing at a time, and it's getting serious.
Anyway this is just a post for me to once again acknowledge and admit my own weakness and problem, I didn't mention this problem to people much, except a close friend.
I think it started about 4 years ago, when I start to notice that I find it hard to concentrate under all those stress with various activities. But the symptoms are getting worse. Even if I plug off my internet cable, and doing nothing else but one work, my mind gets carried away with something else. I couldn't even sit still sometimes.
I believe I don't have ADHD, since it's biological and I had never shown any similar symptoms during my childhood. I've found advices and suggestions to overcome this concentration problem. Just to mention a few, which probably sounds general, such as setting goals, time management, shaping some good habits and routines. There are some which sounds really useful to me, like getting rid of clutter at the workplace, including keeping the brain clutter-free. Besides the outer distractions, I had experienced my brain being extremely distracted, like in one moment, the brain is telling me dozens of different things, emotions, problems, weather, myths, past memories, future possibilities... etc. Sometimes they become rather overwhelming when I'm not controlling those thoughts. Another advice from psychologists will also be exercise. Exercise get rid of the extra energy in individuals who had ADHD, and it balances the brain chemicals. I used to keep a weekly jogging routine in certain months, and I had not been experiencing severe concentration problems. When I slack off and skipped exercises, before I realized it, I'm drowned in my own unstable emotions and it includes inability to focus on one thing for a long time.
The most frustrating thing about this concentration problem is, when you know how far your abilities can go and the result doesn't reflect your own ability at all.
I got over with my mild depression, and I want to learn to concentrate for important and long tasks. I'll make an effort to be like myself and become a better individual. May God strengthen me and guide me through difficult situations.
Anyway this is just a post for me to once again acknowledge and admit my own weakness and problem, I didn't mention this problem to people much, except a close friend.
I think it started about 4 years ago, when I start to notice that I find it hard to concentrate under all those stress with various activities. But the symptoms are getting worse. Even if I plug off my internet cable, and doing nothing else but one work, my mind gets carried away with something else. I couldn't even sit still sometimes.
I believe I don't have ADHD, since it's biological and I had never shown any similar symptoms during my childhood. I've found advices and suggestions to overcome this concentration problem. Just to mention a few, which probably sounds general, such as setting goals, time management, shaping some good habits and routines. There are some which sounds really useful to me, like getting rid of clutter at the workplace, including keeping the brain clutter-free. Besides the outer distractions, I had experienced my brain being extremely distracted, like in one moment, the brain is telling me dozens of different things, emotions, problems, weather, myths, past memories, future possibilities... etc. Sometimes they become rather overwhelming when I'm not controlling those thoughts. Another advice from psychologists will also be exercise. Exercise get rid of the extra energy in individuals who had ADHD, and it balances the brain chemicals. I used to keep a weekly jogging routine in certain months, and I had not been experiencing severe concentration problems. When I slack off and skipped exercises, before I realized it, I'm drowned in my own unstable emotions and it includes inability to focus on one thing for a long time.
The most frustrating thing about this concentration problem is, when you know how far your abilities can go and the result doesn't reflect your own ability at all.
I got over with my mild depression, and I want to learn to concentrate for important and long tasks. I'll make an effort to be like myself and become a better individual. May God strengthen me and guide me through difficult situations.
31.3.11
三月份报告 | Monthly Report: March 2011
Link to: 2011 Reso-Resolution
March didn't become a productive month for me. I still chicken out on things.
1. Relationship with God.
Went to life church weekly, joined a talk-it-over discussion. Did prayers, but I am not sure if I did things right, not sure if I'm on the right path. My bible reading plan is almost 3 weeks behind the schedule. The feeling of recording a reverse progress feels terrible.
2. Writing.
No... not thinking too much lately, so haven't been writing to myself. But have been exchanging letters and thoughts with friends. Philosophy and views on various things, specifically in love.
3. Exercise.
- Did stretching inconsistently.
- Didn't jog at all. T_T
4. Reading.
- On page 255 for "1Q84" (book 2)
- Completed Chin Yew's titles.
- Reading Air Gear Manga, at chapter 249 now.
5. Train my left hand.
Brush teeth using both my right hand and the left, the left hand doesn't do the job well.
Haven't practice doodling and writing with my left hand yet.
Washed dishes with my left hand once.
8. Revise Japanese Language.
Revised some Japanese hiragana and kanji pronunciation, thanks yenyen for helping with my revision. Haven't done any Hangul consonants and vowels revision.
11. Drive to places.
I'm still driving dangerously.I'm sorry, please forgive me, I'm very noob.
I drove to the post office in Cyberjaya, drove to Mid Valley and drove through Puchong with the aid from Mummi and Jacky, my side parking still suck. But I feel more intimate with Gaga now.
Went to life church weekly, joined a talk-it-over discussion. Did prayers, but I am not sure if I did things right, not sure if I'm on the right path. My bible reading plan is almost 3 weeks behind the schedule. The feeling of recording a reverse progress feels terrible.
2. Writing.
No... not thinking too much lately, so haven't been writing to myself. But have been exchanging letters and thoughts with friends. Philosophy and views on various things, specifically in love.
3. Exercise.
- Did stretching inconsistently.
- Didn't jog at all. T_T
4. Reading.
- On page 255 for "1Q84" (book 2)
- Completed Chin Yew's titles.
- Reading Air Gear Manga, at chapter 249 now.
5. Train my left hand.
Brush teeth using both my right hand and the left, the left hand doesn't do the job well.
Haven't practice doodling and writing with my left hand yet.
Washed dishes with my left hand once.
8. Revise Japanese Language.
Revised some Japanese hiragana and kanji pronunciation, thanks yenyen for helping with my revision. Haven't done any Hangul consonants and vowels revision.
11. Drive to places.
I'm still driving dangerously.I'm sorry, please forgive me, I'm very noob.
I drove to the post office in Cyberjaya, drove to Mid Valley and drove through Puchong with the aid from Mummi and Jacky, my side parking still suck. But I feel more intimate with Gaga now.
30.3.11
SeDi Challenge
To those who have been following my blog since decades ago, SeDi might sound familiar to you. I made this term "SeDi" as a short for self-discipline, so yeah this is a Self-Discipline Challenge!
Previous SeDi Projects were.... failures. *look down on myself* Being reminded again by this post here, I decided to start one again, changing it from 'SeDi Project' to 'SeDi Challenge'. Because instead of doing the project, I want to overcome this challenge.
It is not fun to see my low self-esteem in my degree course constantly bulging into my life. My lack of confidence had been leading to severe procrastination. I keep imagining what ifs situations and become depressed and freak myself out. I keep praying, I think the Lord is constantly giving me chances (that I don't deserve) to overcome my fear, because He is this wonderful and patient.
I hated the weekly cycle. I despise my low self-esteem. I want to change.
The following is a daily to-do list:
1. Prayers
2. Work on FYP
3. Draw/write
4. Sleep early, not later than 2am; wake up early, not later than 10am.
This daily routine targets to work the hardest and most important task the first thing in the morning. No randomly checking emails, no facebook, no kongregate, no long chats when I'm working. I've spent too much time wandering off elsewhere.
Plan starts the day after this post.
I will post something after a week on my progress and results.
Previous SeDi Projects were.... failures. *look down on myself* Being reminded again by this post here, I decided to start one again, changing it from 'SeDi Project' to 'SeDi Challenge'. Because instead of doing the project, I want to overcome this challenge.
It is not fun to see my low self-esteem in my degree course constantly bulging into my life. My lack of confidence had been leading to severe procrastination. I keep imagining what ifs situations and become depressed and freak myself out. I keep praying, I think the Lord is constantly giving me chances (that I don't deserve) to overcome my fear, because He is this wonderful and patient.
I hated the weekly cycle. I despise my low self-esteem. I want to change.
The following is a daily to-do list:
1. Prayers
2. Work on FYP
3. Draw/write
4. Sleep early, not later than 2am; wake up early, not later than 10am.
This daily routine targets to work the hardest and most important task the first thing in the morning. No randomly checking emails, no facebook, no kongregate, no long chats when I'm working. I've spent too much time wandering off elsewhere.
Plan starts the day after this post.
I will post something after a week on my progress and results.
15.3.11
一刻钟的浪漫
静得
只听得见风扇没有高低起伏
重复转动的声音。
墙上的时钟有意无意地陪着
这样的夜晚，滴答滴答
述说着美丽的寂寞。
荧幕经营着人造光
目光停留在荧幕上正中央。
灵魂却早已悄悄地
在享受不足一刻钟的浪漫。
只听得见风扇没有高低起伏
重复转动的声音。
墙上的时钟有意无意地陪着
这样的夜晚，滴答滴答
述说着美丽的寂寞。
荧幕经营着人造光
目光停留在荧幕上正中央。
灵魂却早已悄悄地
在享受不足一刻钟的浪漫。
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