妈咪：“做墨你的粽子包到好像kuih koci酱的……”
我： *汗颜*
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后来妈咪帮我补救了我包的几粒粽子（勉强算是包了几粒，不过还是算妈妈包的），总算像回粽子了。我包一粒，她就包了一打。肉酸的粽，都是我包的，呵呵呵。
提早祝各位端午节快乐。（落在6/6/11）
31.5.11
8.5.11
乌黑
夜是一头乌黑
的长发。
有时候很美丽
有时候很诡异
有时候散落着一些
棉白头皮屑。
有时候像厚实发束
绕颈般的窒息。
大概只能以一种随波逐流、不抗拒的形式
来面对这乌黑长发。
才可以融合在
同一种乌黑里
沉淀歇息。
因为夜是一头乌黑
的长发。
的长发。
有时候很美丽
有时候很诡异
有时候散落着一些
棉白头皮屑。
有时候像厚实发束
绕颈般的窒息。
大概只能以一种随波逐流、不抗拒的形式
来面对这乌黑长发。
才可以融合在
同一种乌黑里
沉淀歇息。
因为夜是一头乌黑
的长发。
7.5.11
四月份报告 | Monthly Report: April 2011
Yikes, I told myself to update this in early May, and I almost forgot about it. It was a very unhealthy and stressful month for me. It's amazing to know I still can be very bipolar at times. Ups and downs. Somehow... God has shown me enough mercy and miracles. I just have to pull it through... and I know that it is the END of my whatever emotional drama; because someone who has a very high self-esteem (although it only applies to certain areas of my 'expertise') like myself just hate the feeling of low self-esteem and lack of confidence. So here it goes.
Well, I've been working on my Final Year Project this month, not to mention about personal matters, because there always will be a particular group of friends who doesn't know how to respect. To those who are not my close friends, yes I am actually very particular and picky towards the way you express yourself to me.
1. Relationship with God.
Went to life church twice I think. Read the notes but skipped the discussions because I was kinda losing track of time. BUT something BIG happened!!! This I cannot stop saying it! God answered my mother's and my prayers!! I kept on praying for a chance for me to complete my animation, and mother prayed for my self-confidence, and I had gotten both now. God is good! I cannot express my feeling of gratefulness. God never left me alone to rot, God is there watching over me, always. Thank you, my Lord!
3. Exercise.
- Did stretching and simple exercises inconsistently.
- Didn't jog at all.
4. Reading.
- Completed "1Q84" (book 2)
- Started "1Q84" (book 3)
- Reading Air Gear Manga, at chapter 249 now.
5. Train my left hand.
Brush teeth using both my right hand and the left.
11. Drive to places.
Only drove to campus and to friend's house nearby. Not much improvement.
Went to life church twice I think. Read the notes but skipped the discussions because I was kinda losing track of time. BUT something BIG happened!!! This I cannot stop saying it! God answered my mother's and my prayers!! I kept on praying for a chance for me to complete my animation, and mother prayed for my self-confidence, and I had gotten both now. God is good! I cannot express my feeling of gratefulness. God never left me alone to rot, God is there watching over me, always. Thank you, my Lord!
3. Exercise.
- Did stretching and simple exercises inconsistently.
- Didn't jog at all.
4. Reading.
- Completed "1Q84" (book 2)
- Started "1Q84" (book 3)
- Reading Air Gear Manga, at chapter 249 now.
5. Train my left hand.
Brush teeth using both my right hand and the left.
11. Drive to places.
Only drove to campus and to friend's house nearby. Not much improvement.
Well, I've been working on my Final Year Project this month, not to mention about personal matters, because there always will be a particular group of friends who doesn't know how to respect. To those who are not my close friends, yes I am actually very particular and picky towards the way you express yourself to me.
26.4.11
两极
我们的世界很奇妙，创造世界的神很完美。
有白天、有黑夜；
有欢喜、有悲伤。
有生、有死。
我们笑着迎接新的生命，哭着送走逝去的生命。
在欢笑声中被接到这世上，在悲泣中离开。
孩子学着成为大人；大人想着成为孩子。
我们越长大，越需要被提醒连孩子们都会的事。
孩子们却一直被教导着如何成为懂事成熟的孩子。
未知的事，大人害怕；
失败的事，大人恐惧。
未知的事，孩子探索；
失败的事，孩子根本不懂什么叫失败。
我的赤子之心，不会远去。
那些很单纯没有一点杂念的信念。
Childlike faith.
世间万物都是一个圆
有始
有终。
有白天、有黑夜；
有欢喜、有悲伤。
有生、有死。
我们笑着迎接新的生命，哭着送走逝去的生命。
在欢笑声中被接到这世上，在悲泣中离开。
孩子学着成为大人；大人想着成为孩子。
我们越长大，越需要被提醒连孩子们都会的事。
孩子们却一直被教导着如何成为懂事成熟的孩子。
未知的事，大人害怕；
失败的事，大人恐惧。
未知的事，孩子探索；
失败的事，孩子根本不懂什么叫失败。
我的赤子之心，不会远去。
那些很单纯没有一点杂念的信念。
Childlike faith.
世间万物都是一个圆
有始
有终。
14.4.11
Problems
I have a confession to make, it's probably very common, but I still have to confess. I have problems concentrating on one thing at a time, and it's getting serious.
Anyway this is just a post for me to once again acknowledge and admit my own weakness and problem, I didn't mention this problem to people much, except a close friend.
I think it started about 4 years ago, when I start to notice that I find it hard to concentrate under all those stress with various activities. But the symptoms are getting worse. Even if I plug off my internet cable, and doing nothing else but one work, my mind gets carried away with something else. I couldn't even sit still sometimes.
I believe I don't have ADHD, since it's biological and I had never shown any similar symptoms during my childhood. I've found advices and suggestions to overcome this concentration problem. Just to mention a few, which probably sounds general, such as setting goals, time management, shaping some good habits and routines. There are some which sounds really useful to me, like getting rid of clutter at the workplace, including keeping the brain clutter-free. Besides the outer distractions, I had experienced my brain being extremely distracted, like in one moment, the brain is telling me dozens of different things, emotions, problems, weather, myths, past memories, future possibilities... etc. Sometimes they become rather overwhelming when I'm not controlling those thoughts. Another advice from psychologists will also be exercise. Exercise get rid of the extra energy in individuals who had ADHD, and it balances the brain chemicals. I used to keep a weekly jogging routine in certain months, and I had not been experiencing severe concentration problems. When I slack off and skipped exercises, before I realized it, I'm drowned in my own unstable emotions and it includes inability to focus on one thing for a long time.
The most frustrating thing about this concentration problem is, when you know how far your abilities can go and the result doesn't reflect your own ability at all.
I got over with my mild depression, and I want to learn to concentrate for important and long tasks. I'll make an effort to be like myself and become a better individual. May God strengthen me and guide me through difficult situations.
Anyway this is just a post for me to once again acknowledge and admit my own weakness and problem, I didn't mention this problem to people much, except a close friend.
I think it started about 4 years ago, when I start to notice that I find it hard to concentrate under all those stress with various activities. But the symptoms are getting worse. Even if I plug off my internet cable, and doing nothing else but one work, my mind gets carried away with something else. I couldn't even sit still sometimes.
I believe I don't have ADHD, since it's biological and I had never shown any similar symptoms during my childhood. I've found advices and suggestions to overcome this concentration problem. Just to mention a few, which probably sounds general, such as setting goals, time management, shaping some good habits and routines. There are some which sounds really useful to me, like getting rid of clutter at the workplace, including keeping the brain clutter-free. Besides the outer distractions, I had experienced my brain being extremely distracted, like in one moment, the brain is telling me dozens of different things, emotions, problems, weather, myths, past memories, future possibilities... etc. Sometimes they become rather overwhelming when I'm not controlling those thoughts. Another advice from psychologists will also be exercise. Exercise get rid of the extra energy in individuals who had ADHD, and it balances the brain chemicals. I used to keep a weekly jogging routine in certain months, and I had not been experiencing severe concentration problems. When I slack off and skipped exercises, before I realized it, I'm drowned in my own unstable emotions and it includes inability to focus on one thing for a long time.
The most frustrating thing about this concentration problem is, when you know how far your abilities can go and the result doesn't reflect your own ability at all.
I got over with my mild depression, and I want to learn to concentrate for important and long tasks. I'll make an effort to be like myself and become a better individual. May God strengthen me and guide me through difficult situations.
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